As I begin this new year with the wisdom I’ve gained over my years of tears and triumphs, I’ve come to the realization that the hardest relationship we will encounter in life is with ourselves. Once we have found peace and happiness within ourselves, it is then that our relationships with everything and everyone else will be much easier than we typically make them. It’s not the people and the things on the outside that disrupt our peace, it’s only what is on the inside. This was a lesson it took me a very long time to learn, and I would be lying if I said I have mastered it; it’s not something that comes easy. It’s something that takes constant practice.
As I lay here restless at six o’clock in the morning, I can hear the air blowing from the vent above our bed. I didn’t even realize how badly I needed this moment of silence to myself until now. My heart and mind are calm. I’m living in this moment and not thinking of what is to come. I don’t even care that I didn’t get any sleep. I needed this moment much more than I needed to sleep. I love this saying that goes, “Everyday won’t be our best day, but it can always be our best effort.” Today wasn’t one of my best, but I know that tomorrow will be better. As women I think it is difficult to remember to take care of ourselves, not just in the physical sense but carefully caring for our heart, mind, and spirit. Take care of yourself, Momma, and find inner peace. ❤️ The next time you think somebody pissed you off, take a moment and realize that your peace and happiness was never theirs to take.